Father's Day is almost over. I've been thinking about my father a lot lately. The past couple weeks of my life have been exhilarating, challenging, frustrating, fulfilling and a myriad of other emotions all at the same time. At moments I've felt completely overwhelmed by these emotions, both positively and negatively. And it is in these moments that I become quiet, and I listen. I attempt to silence all my thoughts and everything around me, and I think of my dad. I ask him for advice and guidance in the only way I know how. I'm not sure if this qualifies as a form of prayer or not, but it certainly is a spiritual experience for me. I don't often receive any answers, in fact I never do, at least not directly. But reflection is an important part of life and growth, and I hope that through these brief instances spent in thought I am able to better find my way in this crazy, complex world.
My memories of my father are quite important to me, and I'm glad that they most readily present themselves to me in moments of jubilation. It's sad to me that I'm no longer able to celebrate Father's Day as a son, and I'm willing to admit that I'm terrified that I won't have the opportunity to celebrate the day as a father. But the positive energy I'm able to conjure from my thoughts of my dad helps me to conquer these sorrows and doubts. And I suppose that's the best gift that I am able to give him today.
Happy Father's Day Dad!
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