I took my car, a 2005 Mazda 6 that I happily paid off just this May, to get checked out this morning for what I had self-diagnosed as a power steering fluid leak. My diagnosis was confirmed as a crack in the power steering line was found. A few other maintenance issues of importance, though perhaps not immediate, were brought to my attention as well. I took care of one of them now and am having the leak fixed as soon as the part comes in. Overall, the trip to the garage is going to cost me a couple hundred dollars, which is a lot but not awful in the grand scheme of auto repair.
What is awful is that a couple hundred dollars is a fortune to me right now. I was excited when my car was paid off because I felt like I could start saving that money. But then a couple more student loans kicked in from grad school, and now here I am struggling to get by again.
Life just won't allow me to catch my breath. I don't mean to whine about it - as it is my fault - but I feel stuck, at a loss for inspiration. Whether at work or at my apartment, I don't know what to do with my time. I feel like I should be doing something big, monumental, to push myself forward, but I don't know what. I'm open to the idea of a part-time job or a means of securing a second income, but I can't think of what to do for it.
Any ideas?
I do love writing, think I'm skilled at it, and would love to do more it - about topics less self-indulgent and whiny than this.
I want to enjoy life, all of it, like I know I can - like I once did.
How do I do that?
No comments:
Post a Comment